J-Sin

Sometimes you wish you had long sleeves. So you could just roll them back and face what's to be faced and things would seem alright, or at least slightly warmer. But what if that long sleeve shirt was already soaked in extremely cold waters? Waters that were salted with human sweat and indignity? Guess you'd be up the proverbial creek without a paddle and whatnot.

Hawks though, would somehow find you and your mate, nesting in a tree high above the plains in the forest of insecurity. There'd be a lot of eggs but they'd be busted, broken, and shelled. Hard boiled would be the best death penalty at this point. You could yearn for something more fruitful but the -less suffix would take over.

Reality is an amazing thing. Sometimes it sets in with different weights and tackles your mind regardless of numbness and solitutide. I think back to so many thoughts and places and settings and things and people and fucking more "and's" than you can shake a stick at and (irony aside mind you) I just fucking wonder. Wonder what would be and what could be. But the is, is so much better than anything else and I thank the heavens for its wonder-tude. Bubbles in your glass, glass to the mouth, drink, gulp, gulp--you've just ingested more heartache than you'll ever know. One day, maybe, but it's fucking doubtful.

What would life be like on medications 24/7? I think I'd hate it. I'd succumb to the wonderment of modern 'medicine' and allow my liver to tell my long tales and proverbs.

There are split seconds when my awesome son stares right at me, boasts a huge smile, and shoves his fists in his mouth that I totally melt. That my friends is what it is all about. The rest is fortitude and longitude and latitude and the Prime Meridian of Servitude and whatnot. A simple hug and a kiss, an understanding, a family, this is all that I've ever wished for, and I have it. How fucking lucky am I? Don't answer that, because I shudder the retort. His hope and glee should never surrender to the whims of society, doubts of mankind, or thoughts of a higher intelligence. Weakness and virginity is honestly strength, though strength wants to become the hardiness to forget all about the aforementioned afflictions and to subscribe to a novel of hard bumps and solid retardedness.

I want to play the violin. The end.

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I think this blog entry about high paying jobs is compelling enough to staple to my brothers don't you? Look at the huge divide!

Speaking of jobs (note the lack of 'high paying', while I realize that it's all relative of course), my new job in management is going well thus far. I have lots to learn and really need to backfill a position badly. So if you're the web developer type and want to work for an awesome boss (no, no, really!) you should hook me up with your resume. Isn't it interesting that resum´ and the word 'resume' are essentially the same thing except in pronunication and an accented 'e'?

Anyway. Thanksgiving was fun as always. My son definitely has the whole stranger anxiety thing now so that was a little daunting for him. My brother's daughter is cute and growing quickly though it's weird to see a baby 2 months younger and realizing how much Keeg's has changed over time. It was great seeing my family for my favorite holiday, I just wish I had had an opportunity to talk more and eat MORE--one helping of mashed potatoes is pretty much blasphemy. Speaking of my son, hanging out with him today was awesome, it's hilarious to see him be so enthralled with the cats.

I made some lovely fake-beef stew in the slow cooker today. I was so craving that for some reason. Fake beef can't compare to the real thing when it's slow cooked and tender. I realized in the last couple of days that I'm super craving a bacon cheeseburger from Five Guys or somewhere but I shall resist! Sometimes it sucks to be a vegetarian like when you order a veggie burger from the downstairs cafe (which now boasts a nice Christian cross on the wall, just in case you needed a confession as you gather condiments!) and get a few strips of bacon tossed on just in case 'veggie' was redefined somewhere along the line and not everyone got the memo.

So speaking of food, I think I want to try to make my own French Fries some time soon! A little paprika, salt, pepper, and garlic powder and a pan full of vegetable oil (if I choose to fry rather than bake) will make them awesomer.

Looking forward to moving into our new home but not really looking forward to all the headaches of getting there--selling our house, buying furniture, spending an assload of money, etc. But dude, a six-disc AM/FM intercom system in my house!? That's amazing! Granite countertops in my own gourmet kitchen!? A Florida room!? A finished basement complete with a ton of storage space! Incredible I say! I don't think I'll make a recording studio or anything crazy like that, at least not yet. I think the other room in the basement would be better suited to be similar to the model home, which had it decorated as a kid's playroom. We have a library/study room on the main floor so we don't have to worry about where to put our computer and desk stuff. With four bedrooms, we can have a room for Keeg's plus his future brother/sister, and a guest. I think it's hilarious how the rooms I'm the least excited about decorating we probably already have stuff for--the formal living room and formal dining room. Whatever! Snooooore. So again, when will several thousand dollars fall out of the sky and magically into my bank account so I can take care of all of this? Honestly if I won the lottery (which would be amazing since I don't play!) I probably wouldn't quit my job unless it was in the several, SEVERAL millions. Granted I probably would be more on a coast than I am now, not fearing being fired or whatever, but I'd still give it my all. I just think I'd be too bored at home all day. Though I really miss the time with my son and wife.

New Botch DVD is extremely incredible. Our friends from Seattle come on Monday which should be fun. I hope my buddy brought his Wii so I can make terrible 'wee' jokes. "Hey I want to play with your wee", "Your wee is sooo expensive!", "That's the whitest wee I've ever seen!", "So this is the controller for your wee?", "Why is your wee so small?", "Are there lots of things to insert into your wee?", and other such luminous and insightfully witty jokes.

ps. Pandora deserves some snaps for hooking me with some We Are Scientists before I go to bed...

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what a great video. Canucks are the best. I'd never take 5 slaps redeemable through eternity.

Also the offer for our new home was accepted by the builders. Now on with the fun! Yeehaw our house should be done in April/May/June time period! Is it too early to start shopping for rad furniture?

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So in the eleven days or so that I last posted, I was promoted to a management position, found out that I have little patience to continue to write reviews for Smother for bands that are completely a waste of everyone's time, and now am about to commit to buying a new single family home. All day today we met with a salesman at a local builder and went over various options, upgrades, and floor plans to try to find what fits. One home was really nice and was an immediate move-in. A normally +$650K home with 4300 square feet was going for around $540K. Only problem for me was that it backed to the Prince William Co. Pkwy and that would get annoying after a while. Instead we're going to make an offer on a custom-built home which is still a pretty sweet deal tomorrow. It's incredibly stressful but should be within our price range. It'll be nice to finally be in the home that we will be staying in for decades rather than a handful of years. I'm done with the moving thing and the whole buying a home thing is pretty damn stressful. The house we like has four bedrooms, a 2-story "great room" (I love that name and all but it's going to be the "awesome room" from now on), a finished basement, 2-car garage, a Florida room, crazy walk-in closets, jacuzzi tub, and a gourmet kitchen with phat granite counters. All in all, I think it's like a little over 4,000 square feet. Probably more space than we'll ever need but hardly any lawn to ever mow! WHOOHOO! The lot actually isn't terrible either which is a super big plus. I think it's ridiculous that you actually have to pay for things like an exit from your basement (a cool $8,000!) and a washer and dryer (about $1250 total). Oh well, we were quoted a price roughly around $150-160K off soooo it's better than us buying two years ago! Of course we face the problem of selling our townhouse now though. Especially since our neighbor listed his house too.

Speaking of stressful, my new job is great but since we're so short (if you're a web developer, you should totally get in contact with me immediately!) it's hard to play the role of my former self and my new self at once. Delegation is key but is hard to do when your two employees are pretty stacked up as it is. Thankfully I have a couple of great guys who are eager to learn and build on their skill sets that much more. But katybeck needs to come back! Puhlease! (You can buy my old house too!!! I'll drive you to work!!!)

The Scarface PS2 game is pretty awesome. New Deftones album is pretty astonishing so is the fact that Chino is still fat but can still sing. "Cherry Waves" is probably my favorite song. I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving a lot. It's always a fun time and it'll be cool to introduce the next generation in terms of my son to all my relatives. Gnarly!

So tomorrow's plans you ask?

That'll consist of making an offer on this home, being depressed that I don't have more money to put down as a down payment on said home (anyone have about $100,000 that is burning a hole in their pocket?!?!), watching some football, cleaning up our house a bit, being more depressed about not feeling like I'm doing a good enough job of giving my family the best of the best, and probably making some crazy chili in my crock pot!

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I'm a nerd and stayed up until around midnight last night watching the election results as they came in. I would bounce from the VA site to the television, giddy as a schoolboy! Elections are always fun for me. I enjoyed last year's governor's race and of course I'm all over the mid-terms and Presidential races as well as all the primaries.

So it looks like I was right about Talent (D-MO), Santorum losing, Lieberman winning, Burns losing in Montana, Blackwell and DeWine losing, Chafee losing, Allen will eventually concede, I seriously doubt VA goes through a whole recount. But I was totally wrong about Erhlich winning. That was a pretty close race though.

It's great that Rumsfeld resigned. The writing was totally on the wall now that the administration will actually have to answer hard questions about an unpopular war. Don't look for him to get any medals from Bush either. There's going to be a lot of resentment towards a lot of administration officials. I wouldn't be surprised to see Condi go next or more probable is Gonzales. Then look for the Bush team to keep their noses clean and under the radar. Not only are they a lame duck session now but they can't afford to further divide their base or lose the moderate independent vote like they did for these midterms. Everyone's eyes are on the prize in 2008, and since both of the two leading candidates for the GOP nomination are McCain and Rudy Guilani, both somewhat moderate, I don't think it would be smart if the GOP leaders courted the extreme right-wing voter. In fact I'd bet that Bush might bring on a moderate to right-leaning Democrat to replace someone at a Cabinet level position. That way if they do push things that blow up there will be egg on the face of Democrats too. Anyway it was a good night. I just wish Virginia hadn't retardly voted in hate into legislation again. Ugh.

Edit: My wife pwned me and said I should spell Lincoln Chafee's name right. So I got that fixed. And also I'd like to remind her to watch out for incoming text messages!

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You can watch the election results in Virginia real time by going to the official site. My predictions for the night:

Ford wins TN
Web wins VA based on the strength of NVA
Santorum loses in PA so another seat to the Dems
Hilary Clinton CRUSHES in NY like 75% of the vote
Blackwell loses in OH and so does Dewine
Talent wins barely in MO
Montana flips on Conrad Burns and that seat goes to the Dems
Steele narrowly loses in MD to Cardin (blacks don't decide to totally vote along ethnic lines thankfully)
The two Kentucky seats in the House go to the Democrats
Erhlich wins a second term as the Republican Governor of MD
Frank Wolf almost loses to Judy Feder in a very tight race in VA (my district)
Lincoln Chafee loses in RI
Lieberman wins narrowly over Ned Lamont in CT and the other two Republicans (come Joementum is a total R) lose to Democrats

22 seats in the House change to the Democrats...there was a lot of folks at the polls at 8am when I went. hope that means good things! Now it's time to go turn on CNN and be a pundit in training.

I think it'll be a good night but who knows, it's still early!

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